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The fashion designer revealed she and husbandTim Rosenmansuffered a pregnancy loss on Nov. 17, two weeks after announcing she was seven weeks pregnant with “likely another unhealthy pregnancy.” Port has previously suffered two miscarriages and a chemical pregnancy.
“He looked at the ultrasound and looked at me and raised his eyebrows and just shook his head, and in that moment, I just knew, and it just felt like Groundhog’s Day, like, just the feeling of grief is all too familiar.”
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“I’m just obviously going to start going down that journey and not even quite yet, I’m not even really fully ready to have that discussion, even though I know that we want a second kid, because the thought of not having a second kid makes me feel already too regretful and remorseful,” Port says.
“But then,” she continues, “the thought of having to go through this physical illness and nausea of the first trimester is daunting and scary and taxing. I literally have not been able to do anything. Like I have felt like the laziest person.”
“Like, I wasn’t being a present mom. I wasn’t being a present wife. I wasn’t being a present employee and co-worker and partner and that I was just constantly disappointing people,” she explains.
“I just don’t want to be a mess anymore…You know, it was like, this is it. This is, this is going to be that I’ve dealt with the two miscarriages. This is going to be the healthy one. I’m not going to have to think about it anymore,” she continues later in the episode.
“I’m not going to have to make the decision of like, do I even want to have a second child anymore? Do I want to go through IVF? Do I want to make a child in a lab? I just didn’t think I was going to have to answer all those questions and now it just feels like I have a lot of responsibility to make those decisions,” she adds through tears.
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She says she also “feels guilty for even complaining because I have Sonny” as others out there “haven’t even had the opportunity to have one [child].”
“Be honest about my feelings and not try to hide them, but also try my best to be strong and positive,” she adds.
In herYouTube update shared on Nov. 17, Port and Rosenman said that at their latest visit the “doctor didn’t hear a heartbeat.”
Port shared in July 2019 that she hadsuffered a miscarriage, and announced that she hadanother pregnancy lossin January of this year.
source: people.com
