Kalani Hilliker.Photo:Michael Buckner/Variety/Penske/Getty
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Kalani Hillikeris speaking candidly about her time on Lifetime’sDance Moms.
“We never were really allowed to vocalize how we felt,” Hilliker recalled. “And I definitely held a lot in of how I was feeling and what was going on just because I obviously wanted to be the best.”
She continued, “I had so many eyes on me that I was just wanting to be the best I could.”
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“I’m a very hardworking person, like, I love to be go, go, go, go,” the Irreplaceable Tour dancer said. “But when I’m go, go, go, go all the time, my energy runs out. And then I can’t even do the things that I want to do anymore. And I break down. I definitely broke down.”
Despite the ups and downs of being a teenager on a reality series, the Arizona native said she doesn’t regret the experience. She explained that she’s grateful for the show and Miller, 57, and has learned a lot from the trauma it caused.
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The Kare x Kalani founder added, “Obviously, it brought lots of trauma. And we all definitely went through some hard times. And I can’t speak for any of them, because we all have our own experiences. But for me, it was really, really hard. And I obviously have anxiety and other things probably stemming from being on the show. But at the end of the day, I’m so grateful for it because I wouldn’t be able to advocate for things like mental health or teach dance on the level that I do.”
Hilliker appeared on the show alongsideJoJo SiwaandMaddie Ziegler. Last month, Ziegler, 20, revealed during an appearance on theHigh Low with EmRatapodcastthat her mom, Melissa Ziegler-Gisoni, apologized to her for her time onDance Moms.
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“Last year, I was having a really bad panic attack and I called my mom and things were coming up from the past, and she apologized to me,” the “Chandelier” dancer, who starred on the show from 2011 to 2016, said.
“She was like, ‘I’m so sorry I put you through that.’ It’s so sad because she would never want to hurt us, but none of us knew how crazy it would get,” Ziegler added.
source: people.com
